Have I mentioned I live in San Francisco? Probably one of the greatest cities in the world? On days like today, sunny, beaming and beautiful, are the days I feeling grateful I live in such a city and have the day off.
But on days like this, it’s gets me reminiscing about my ex. on days like this, we used to walk through the park, sit on the beach, drive through until the sun set, eat at outdoor restaurants and rest in Dolores Park.
On days like this, it becomes apparent, that despite the weeks of progress I’ve made trying to move on, a little bit of it comes back. the sweet memories, the bitterness of regret and the inability to think of anything else because you’re left with nothing but a smile and tear on your face.
I know one day, I’ll move on. and I’ll maybe even miss that pain. that inability to wake up, that inability to stop dreaming, that inability to not remember everything and that inability to not be sad. I know it will be time to move on but it hasn’t happened yet. Until it does, she’ll always be the one in my heart. the one I wish I could restart. the one regret and the one thing I’ll never let grow old. two years and she hasn’t faded. maybe she never will. maybe I’ll still be here, sitting on the dock of the bay, whistling that Otis Redding tune and remembering the good times I had. because that’s all I can do now.
I dont know why I choose the picture that I did. But I will mention this in my personal life update. I really do miss my ex. I guess sometimes, it comes in waves. I know we’re not getting back together. I know she’s doesn’t have those feelings for me anymore. but what I wouldn’t give to have one last chance to be with her. So much I would re-do. So much I would show her. I should be active looking for a new girlfriend. but I don’t want to. One day, I’ll be over it. I’ll move on. But that day hasn’t come yet. But one day, it will and I’ll look back and not feel a bit of sadness.
Also, my arms are in a lot of pain. I have to take three pills a day, three times a day to make the pain manageable. These pills make me feel high. Lyrica, Tramadol and Vimovo. yeah…but I don’t take them at night. Instead i wear arm splints, which I’m wearing right now. They don’t know what it is. Is it Fibromyalgia? Cubital Nerve Entrapment (please, no) or Ulner Nerve Entrapment. I’m more hoping for ‘this can be fixed with a cortizone shot’ and I won’t have to have surgery.
when you’re young, you just believe there’ll be many people with whom you’ll connect with. Later in life, you realize it only happens a few times.
”..Never have I met someone as wonderful as you… we might not be able to be together…but I thoroughly love you as who you are, and I will always give you my love unconditionally, no matter what happens, I’ll always be right there for you..”
“A dive bar is a social platform. Tumblr is for publicly sharing awful photographs of railroad tracks and snowy branches no one wants to see, not even your mother.” — A graduation message from an analog dad to a digital son. (via latimes)
(via latimes)
This was the first and last picture I took at the BBQ yesterday for Memorial Day. To be honest, I drank far too much this past weekend. Including all four weekend nights and last night being the highwater mark. I went out to North Beach all Friday night, then Saturday was Monica’s party in which Ailbhe (that’s a name) brought some friends from wine country and they were quite awesome. I had a lot of fun with them. Sunday we went out walking about in North Beach, Chinatown and tried to watch the fireworks but just watched them from the roof. The picture explains what happened on Memorial Day.
oh and did I mention I got a job? I’ll be working as a Production Assistant at ILM. Pretty cool huh? There’ll be a movie coming out next summer and you’ll see my name in the credits.
July is looking to be pretty crazy. Three parties and a trip to Disneyland. So it’ll be an interesting summer.
Okay, I’m going to make this short and sweet.
Offense: Kings
Defense: Even
Power Play and Penalty Kill: Kings
Goaltending: Kings
Intangibles: Even
Coaching: Kings
Let’s be realistic here. The Kings are simply overpowering. New Jersey will have to do to many things right to win. They can’t roll four lines like the Kings can. They’re not as fast as them and they’re defense lack an offensive catalyst to bring the puck from the back end to the net. LA has three puck moving defensemen and they’re all paired with defensive defensemens to cover for their mistakes. They’ve got two scoring lines that also act as shut down lines and they’ve got two energy lines that will simply out hit you in your game. New Jersey will also have to forecheck to win and I can’t see them getting past Kopitar or Richards.
When it comes down to it. Top to bottom. The Kings are better. Even with goaltending, the Kings are still better. The special teams edge is because Los Angeles is stingy and they score shorthanded. They don’t just dump the puck out of the zone, they carry it out and scare you with their line to line passing and speed. Both teams had lengthy layoffs and I think you’ll see a lot of mistakes in the first game but I think Game 2 will really determine the winner of this series. I believe the Devils will win game 1 and LA will simply just win the next four and raise the cup. Los Angeles, this is your year to have a parade and party in downtown and make the Kings the chic thing to do. This will be the year. I’m going with the Kings.
Prediction: Kings in Five.
and this was us at the Giants game. Freezing our arse off. With the Bobum Man behind us.
This was us in Las Vegas for my birthday. This is the only photo I could find that had most of us in it.
This was us at Bay to Breakers before we…all… separated, yeah, that’s the right word. or lost our ways? I dunno. But I had fun.